Let’s be real...

Heeeey y’all! Sorry I haven’t blogged for a few days but I’ve just been going through it. This post is gonna be one of the most rawest, most transparent, I’ve ever been. I’ve been going through all the struggles lately. Anxiety and depression have become a daily routine for me these days and I haven’t been in any mood for A N Y T H I N G at all. I’ve literally just been in bed all day. I’m not 100% sure what it is that’s triggering it the most, but I’m sure it’s work, the feeling that I’m not good enough, that I’m letting everyone down and just the fact that I can’t seem to do anything right.

Rewind to a few months ago, (April to be exact) my husband and I had to move into some strangers house because we couldn’t afford to pay over a thousand dollars for rent. (Stupid California) so we found some guy on Craigslist. We checked him out, it all seemed fine and dandy at first, till it wasn’t. He was a slob, roaches every where. In the shower, in the fridge, the living room and even started infesting our room. So about three months later or so, my husband and I ended up moving into his parents house. Things started to look up, we started feeling like we were getting back on our feet again. We had jobs, we were making decent money.. but then the drama at work started. My hours started getting cut, my checks were getting smaller, and I started getting overwhelmed. To top it all off, my car is falling apart. LOL, yay me right? So not only are we starting to struggle getting by, but now we have to figure out how I’m going to get to work.. my husband and I have for the majority of our relationship worked together which was very convenient. So we never really had many transportation issues. So when he got a new job and I was forced to use my own car, things started to get harder for me. OHHH I almost forgot to mention, he works with his dad, so on his very first day of work, on their way home.. him and his dad ended up getting into a car accident. So now, we’re one car short. Which makes it even harder because I was supposed to be using my husbands car and him and his dad were supposed to use his dads car. But now his dads car is totaled so now I’m stuck trying to figure out how my means of transportation.. fun!

But I guess what I’m trying to say through all of this is, WHO cares if your life isn’t always sunshine and flowers. It’s okay to feel things. It’s okay to go through the motions of life. It’s okay to feel sad. Its okay to feel like giving up. ITS OKAY TO HAVE FEELINGS, is what I’m really trying to say. Cry when you need to cry, laugh when you wanna laugh. Don’t bottle things up, don’t hold anything back. And IF you fall, GET RIGHT BACK UP!! Life is gonna throw you curveballs, swing for the fences sweetie! And if you strikeout a couple of times, it’s okay! Step up to the plate again, and keep swinging!

My all time favorite quote is from “A Cinderella Story”

-“ Never let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game!”

Seriously one of the greatest quotes I’ve ever read.

Tips for people struggling with anxiety or any other mental health issues: find a hobby. Or something that you love to do. Because as much as want for SOMEONE to always be there for us, its not always going to happen that way. But a hobby, or something fun to do on the side will always be there when you need it to be.

Something that always helps me is writing.. hence the blog! Lol. I love writing, it helps me escape the world, the hard times and just helps me when I’m down.

And my husband, my husband is my rock. He’s my best friend, my number supporter and my biggest motivation. God has blessed me so much!

I hope this has helped you and have you a little deeper understanding of who I am! If you wanna get to know me a little better, follow my social media’s!